End of March

Two years ago, Keren Ann's "End of May" came into my life.

Close your eyes and roll a dice
Under the board there's a compromise
If after all we only lived twice
Which lies the run road to paradise
Don't say a word, here comes the break of the day
And wide clouds of sand raised by the wind of the end of May
Close your eyes and make a bet
Face to the glare of the sunset
This is about as far as we get
You haven't seen me disguised yet
Don't say a word, here comes the break of the day
And wide clouds of sand raised by the wind of the end of May
Close your eyes and make a wish
Under the stone there's a stonefish
Hold your breath then roll the dice
It might lead the run road to paradise
Don't say a word, here comes the break of the day
And wide clouds of sand raised by the wind of the end...
Don't say a word, here comes the break of the day
And wide clouds of sand raised by the wind of the end of May

Now it's 2009.
It's the end of March already.
Just keep walking.

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步行，从西单开经过天安门到达王府井。上一次，是在4年前。在2009年3月27日以前，以为自己再不会允许有第二次被如此折磨的行为出现。
这一次，却不觉得是折磨。
从王府井出发，继续东行。午夜的长安街是橘色的，难得的安静，出其的温暖。
两个快25的女孩，就想这么走下去。
遇到奇怪一人，三次正面遭遇，才确定是被跟踪了。为该人的大嗓门所惊讶，惶恐不知所措，好在Vala镇定，迅速打车，逃离。

如果所有事情都可以如此简单解决……

2009年3月28日，睡到中午12点半。决定去晃荡。Vala疯狂提及“30岁还没嫁出去，可以穿的这个”。“30岁还没嫁出去”这样的字眼，让还未过25岁生日的我们开始焦虑。亲情、友情、工作（事业）、进步，还有没影的爱情，和遥不可及的温暖。沉沉的，重重的。在灯火通明的商场中，焦躁不安地等待这“地球一小时”的到来。岂料（或许心中早已料到，只是不愿承认罢了）过了20点30分，并没有什么变化。跑出光电大厦，站在天桥，四面八方的绚烂灯光，晃得人有些晕。

我正在说假话，今天听来的一句悖论。